The masks of inscrutability, or are you really you?

[Eomer of the Rohirrim]

Maybe it is a bit harsh to call everyone 'fools and idiots'. The feeling is due to the fact that I only really notice the fools and idiots, whereas the good people (who probably are the majority) usually fit nicely into the background and are taken for granted.

But there really are some days where I despair for humanity. There are a number of ways to deal with those feelings. Listen to the Flaming Lips, for example.

[Elennar Starfire]

When it first began, Elennar was K******. But as Elennar grew and evolved, she dragged K****** along. So at first Elennar was K******, then K****** became Elennar!

[Gorwingel]

Well Gorwingel is me

In real life I am a terrible writer (which is quite strange because I do frequent a forum where I am required to write), I am extremely shy, and I do enjoy talking about LOTR. I think though in real life I do tend to like to talk more about the films. So I guess you could say that my online persona is a wannabe Tolkien philosopher (which I am most definitely not).

The great thing though about the Internet is that you can check your posts (which much of the time I do not), and you also don't have to pronounce the names of the characters. I think sometimes when I do mispronounce one of their names people think I am an idiot.

But then I also highly doubt that if you saw me walk down the street you would immediately think that I was a Tolkien fan. I tend to go incognito in a way, and I don't even go in costume to the conventions.

So in life I am the way I am in this forum. I am the quiet person in the back that occasionally pipes up, occasionally embarrasses themselves, but is always polite and well behaved.

[Saraphim]

But there really are some days where I despair for humanity.

This is very true. Just today, In fact, while dealing with a particularly annoying specimen, I found myself wishing that life was like the Barrow-Downs, where if one repeatedly made idiotic statements with no attempt at discussion, one would be dealt with in the necessary fashion. Without the dealer being fired for speaking her mind.

If that makes sense...

Anyway, Back on topic. I was at the library today and someone said something about "seraphim".

I said, (quite loudly too, it was rather embarrassing) "What?"

I think I have officially become myself...

[Carlas]

Well Carlas is M.S. at her most quiet.

Carlas is just one of my many personalities, the shy and quiet one. She was a bit more open when she first joined the Downs but now has become quiet and content to just float around in the backround. M.S on the other hand is just...weird. A crazy 15-year-old who enjoys life to the fullest and isn't afraid to be heard. She can be quiet sometimes, but that's just Carlas starting to creep to the surface.

Oh well, maybe M.S. will make her appearance some day!

[Eomer of the Rohirrim]

Wouldn't it be awesome if, any time someone did say or do something moronic and annoying, the Giant Figure of The Barrow Wight appeared in the sky and squished them into the ground.

And then said; "Closed."

[Saraphim]

Wow, Eomer. You've just stated my dream in life.

It is not Eomer and his alter-ego that change between the Downs and the so-called 'real world'. Rather, it is his surroundings. In 'real life' he is surrounded by fools and idiots (with a few exceptions) and on the Downs he is surrounded by a bunch of wonderfully witty and fun and intelligent people.

This is true for me too. I do, as I mentioned before, have friends off of the Downs. Good ones, too. But most of them have so much frilly drama-type problems that I just couldn't be bothered to involve myself in, no matter how much some of them want me to be.

Not that I don't care, of course. But I find myself thinking about the Downs and what I'm going to do on the RPG, or about my next Chapter-by-Chapter post, as my friend is going on (and on and on) about her love life.

If I didn't have the Downs and Saraphim, I'd go insane.