Given his recent behaviour towards me I find my grief more controllable than it might have been. I knew him so well and he clearly didn't know me at all no matter what he thought.
So I have the choice of being a merry widow of taking advantage of the date and proposing to a replacement. However there is not exactly a glut of eligible bachelors around (story of my life
) so ..... better find the wolves so I can survive to go to a happier hunting ground... Not easy - we are an extra innocent down and the only person of whose innocence I was confident is gone.