I don't think I had popularity to begin with, and I'm not sure if I even desired it, but now even some of my closest friends are separating from me. I don't know why. I don't usually bring up a conversation of LOTR when they're around. Sometimes they do and get me started on it.
But I have been called so many names because of my obsession. I even told some people that I was trying to get out of LOTR just to keep some of my friends. I'm not, really. I guess I'm just deciding to keep my obsessiveness at home and on a down-low at school.
I mean, I don't mind being criticized for it. I was criticized for things even before my obsession began. I guess I just want to keep the friends I have and not sacrifice them for my obsession. I'll just have to not talk about it for about 8 hours.
On the other hand, as with sacrificing money and time and different stuff like that, I definitly have. I have spent alot of the money I have on buying books by Tolkien, watching the movies, buying LOTR related stuff like calendars, bookmarks, my "one ring", etc.
As for my time, I think I spend the majority of my day thinking about Middle Earth and the movies and books. I get online almost every day for hours {mostly to this site} looking for things Tolkien-related. I have actually been yelled at for being online so long. So I guess that is a sacrifice.
I havn't really lost my sanity due to things at school I have to worry about as well. But sometimes I wonder...if Tolkien were alive today, what would he think of all of us and our obsessiveness and all of this LOTR publicity going on now?
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