Dec 25 before Dawn: Amroth
Amroth paced in a wide circle round the camp, looking outward with eyes and heart. His eyes saw little of use. He knew it gave him a headache, but he could not forbear straining into the distance from time to time, especially when his heart was weary and his mind confused. He did so now, his brow furowed, his eyes squinting, glittering in the December starlight.
In the camp behind him slept or watched his friends, for whom his love grew daily. THey each acted in turn as an anchor to the heaving ship of his heart, so often aching, now numb with pain just as his mind was numb with confusion. HIs eyes remained outward, but every so often his heart cast back to his friends, and he marveled at them. His heart yanked and wrenched at these chains that held him fast, and yet they did not break or yield, these friends of his. They held fast, through storm and gale.
He paused, shed a few silent tears, then walked on. How he loved them. Erebemlin, Taitheneb, Nethwador; Bella, Argeleafa. Liornung and Ędegard and Finduilas.
Finduilas?
There is no one in the company by that name. Who is she?
He paused, and shook his head as if to clear it, but that only made it ache more. He walked on.
Finduilas? Who was she? Amroth wondered again.
The sister of Fingon.
Amroth tensed, paused again, and closed his eyes. You.
My lord.
Why do you say so? thought Amroth.
Since you rule me, how else am l to address you?
Your sister. Where is she? asked Amroth.
Would that I knew.
I knew not of your sister, replied Amroth.
You did not ask. You spoke of Nimrodel alone.
I meant you no harm, and promised you none. Do you doubt my word? thought Amroth.
I do not. Yet I too am grieved.
Sorrow crossed Amroth's face; perhaps it was fated, yet it saddened him nonetheless. You are not alone, thought Amroth.
That much is certain!
I speak not of myself, friend. Many others were broken by her-- as you will be, thought Amroth.
Let us not speak of that.
"My lord?"
Amroth opened Fingon's eyes, and stared at the tall elf in front of him. "... Ere-- Erebemlin?"
The tall elf trembled. "My lord! Rest. Come, lie down and we will watch over you. You must not weaken now-- not now. "
Taitheneb sprang to his feet, and came running. "Lord Amroth-- "
His words were cut short as his king swayed. Catching him, they bore him back to the campfire. Nethwador was sound asleep near the fire, and they set Amroth down near him. Hastily fetching Amroth's blanket, they wrapped it around the king. Then laying his hand on the king's head, Erebemlin looked up at Taitheneb, and there was fear in his eyes.
"The king is retreating. The man returns."
Last edited by mark12_30; 08-26-2004 at 01:28 PM.
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